Got back my first bill from…
My cervical cancer testing I did two weeks back. I have to go in tomorrow for an update appointment. If it turns out I do have this illness, I’m truly unsure if I can handle it or even afford to take care of myself.
Give me some time,
The babies will be mine
Do vblogs, but I never have any topics to talk about.
I wish people would leave me some suggestions.
As of lately I was able to check off one of my sexual fantasies, with that came awkwardness. I admit that it was a but of a slutty one, but I don’t care I wanted to do it. anywaysdoe, on to the awkward - I’ve never had a man put his finger in my butt or eat my ass. That shit doesn’t sexually appeal to my interest.
So about 10 minutes into enjoying my love cove dude starts eating my ass, at first it was okay until he was sucking on my asshole almost like he wanted to eat a fart or whatever feces I wasn’t ready to shit out. That was done with real quick, I was relieved until dude stuck his finger in my butt.
I was secretly shitting bricks,
Like what if shit comes off his finger?
Most of all , that shit felt weird as fuck.
I want nothing to do with anything sexual involving my bootyhole.
Fighting my tears?
Honestly one of the hardest things I can’t come to terms with. I’m so easily broken, holding back tears KILLS ME. My pride, my pain, my anger is what keeps myself from letting you see me at my weakest.